The Picture That Says It All

A late uploaded blog entry dated: April 19, 2015

                That night, my tummy was really feeling that something is inside of it. The thought of him makes these little insects move faster than usual. This was the biggest shift of my emotion, it was a feeling of bliss, a feeling of uncertainty, a feeling of nervousness, a feeling of excitement. I pondered thousand times, and now, I know My feelings were real. I’m really into him. I want to start a chapter with him. I want to see if forever is real.

                  It was just morning.  We supposed to meet up after lunch. I practiced a lot on how I would say something to him. But how many times do I have to try, I ended up deadlocked. It’s my first time to confess my feelings to someone. So I decided to say this four-word answer through a thing that word speak thousands of words out of it.  So I posed with charm into the camera,, showing my warm stare to blend with the caption “I love you too.” It felt awkward, but I knew this would be an aid for successful transmission of message.

                   I had so many what-ifs. It even rained so I thought it was the negative sign. We decided to talk at the sea shore. My heart was beating abnormally. But I still managed to ask him if he really loved me after exactly a month of courting. He reaped those words sincerely, just like the several times he had told me. I looked closely into his eyes, then I saw, it was also my time to confess my feelings. Yet, my mouth started to stutter as my heart seemed to contain a fierce lion roaring inside. So, I asked him to open his Bluetooth connection because I want to show and share him something. He did what I said. And after the sending-receiving process, he hugged me.

                    It was my first and most comfortable hug I have received. It was really a cliche scene. My cheeks were hot and I've got smile all over my face. In all exaggeration, my heart's pounding.."Ali..Ali..Ali..". He held my hand. I felt his hands intertwined mine. He asked me to say hose word directly from my mouth. It was like my blood on my veins suddenly climbed into my brain, and so my neurons say, “do it”. So I did. 

                     And I did it, perfectly. It was better than unsaid. That was an unforgettable feeling. The sunset resting on the horizon knew how it was.